"Like a drifter I was born to walk alone
'Cause I know what it means
To walk along the lonely street of dreams"
(Here I go again - Whitesnake)
Life has been crazy lately. I have been forced to stop and think about a million things I didn't want to. And, believe it or not, it makes me sad. People haven't been acting the way I expected. They dissapointed me in so many ways. And I don't know if my expectations were way too high or if they really are this way and I just never realized it. Yes, people can disappoint me very deep inside. When I finally realize what is going on, I become delusional with situations that I can be involved. I don't believe people can have true love anymore. Actually, they can even feel it, but they won't admit it, cause they are afraid of having feelings. On the other hand, they can not feel it ever or pretend to feel, just for fun... in case there is any fun on pretending, I don't know. World has become a big thing without sense. Some things are never told and we let life lead its way, without thinking on what would be the real sense of living. Is it having a brand new car? Is it about having a good job where you can get enough money to afford your dreams? Is it to have a true love without thinking if this true love is for real? Is it have a perfect family with small little kids running around? I don't know. Im' not sure of what I'm doing with my life and I don't believe in love anymore. Maybe I'm starting to believe that someone invented it so on Valentine's day they would have all the shops full of crazy people buying all kinds of products. Maybe it does exist - why not? - but only for some people. Maybe there is a soul mate out on the streets and I even passed by this person, but I haven't seen him, because my eyes are wide shut. Because my seashell doens't allow anyone else inside and I'm not sure how much time is going to take to open it again...